ive been trying to track this since yesterday. its one of the hardest songs ive ever recorded in one shot. it is so difficult for me to record guitar & vocals together, to get every word right, every difficult melody line, every guitar move. so, like everything i do it is completely imperfect and barely good. but i did it. and this might be as good as it gets. until i give up and decide to track it separately and combine one hundred pieces out of one hundred takes of each part like i usually do and make a frankenstein song with no real heart to it. i tried that all night with this one and the heart was ripped out of it even though it sounded much much much better.

i ended up sitting with it again this morning, re-listening, and then deleting the whole thing after all those hours of work last night and saying “i am going to play this from start to finish without stopping and mean it with all my heart because i would rather produce something authentic than something pretty.” first thing in the morning. i didnt even bother warming up my vocals. so here ya go.